Touched by Sweetness (49)

red tulips in the sunlight

I wake up today to sunlight on the red tulips beside my bed. “Good morning,” I say to them. “Happy Valentine’s Day.” Then I sing happy Valentine’s Day to myself to the tune of the happy birthday song. I like this silly start to the day, lie grinning in the sunny room, the mountains spread before me. I began buying flowers for myself when Sable died. I needed that life here in the room with me. But these are the first tulips I’ve had since his black furry form left this world. Did you know cut tulips keep growing in the vase? I think they may be the only ones who do. I like that about them. And I love how sturdy they are, how upright. I love watching them open and close in the course of a day. Right after Sable died, I wanted a reading, found Rhonda at the crystal store. She told me there was nothing I could have done, eased a weight inside me. “Do you have a plan?” she asked me. A plan? I babbled something I can’t remember now, about how I might try to take care of myself without him here. Maybe about how I wanted to honor the death of both my furred ones by remaining pet free for this next stretch of my life, knowing as I do how it may bring things best served by this. She didn’t even blink, just listened. But then she said something that made me realize she didn’t ask me if I had a plan. She asked me if I had a plant. Ha! It made me laugh. I was touched, too, by her kindness in not correcting me. And I do have a plant, it turns out. I have a small cactus Mami gave me a year ago last Christmas. Right after Boo died, I found tiny red buds all over it. It felt like a message, like a gift. Now it’s in bloom, big deep pink blossoms like exotic birds, my Christmas cactus valentine. I heard the mockingbirds last Wednesday for the first time and wondered if they might be practicing their love songs for the big day. One is singing now as I write, his clear liquid notes drifting through the kitchen window, valentine serenade. May we all be touched by sweetness, today and always.

2 thoughts on “Touched by Sweetness (49)

  1. Hi Riba,
    Tulips weren’t common in Texas when I was growing up. When I was about 26 years old, a friend and I flew to Nashville. It feels to me like the first time for me to see a tulip. They became my favorite flower, and I like having them in the house. I love when they’re first in the vase and seem strong and vibrant, and later when they begin to lean willy-nilly here and there.
    What a great tradition to buy flowers for yourself on Valentine’s Day. Here’s sending you Valentine Day greetings, and future plan(t)s that bring you great joy in 2016.
    :-)
    Bart

  2. Oh, yes, the willy nilly part is unique to tulips, too—how nice of you to appreciate that part, as well. ;-)

    Thanks for the good wishes and the plan(t)s fun, too, Bart! Happy Valentine’s Day. :)

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